In bad need of time out
And I'm going to take it. My sister and her family just left and my brother won't be back from Ottawa for a few more hours so I'm going to take some time to let the nerves unravel and maybe even enjoy myself by watching some wacky Chinese movies.

Oh god, that ended badly. Saturday was excellent because it was me taking my girls out, just the three of us, and I'll post pictures of that to remind myself why life doesn't suck. Yesterday was all right, and today everything exploded. Hearing couples scream at each other as violently as my sister and her husband do makes my nerves shrivel up. You'd think I'd be used to it with the way my parents throw pots and pans at each other and screamed like banshees and threatened to kill each other throughout my childhood, but if anything, I'm far more sensitive to it now. Plus my parents don't totally hate each other. My sister and her husband hate each other so venomously it fills the room and everyone tiptoes around it and tries to ignore them when they're together in hopes that it'll go away.

Unless you're my mother and brother who's still trying to convince them that all they need is Jesus Christ and all their troubles will go away.

I'm just going to be thankful that despite how much their parents suck, my nieces are for the most part doing well. Sure, they want their parents to divorce because living with two screaming people who hate each other isn't fun (I actually never wanted my parents to divorce but that's because even when they're were threatening to cut each other up, I knew deep down inside they didn't hate each other; my sister and her husband, we all know deep down inside they would kill each other if they could), but they love their parents and they're sweet, sunny, smart girls. They are, by far, the best thing about this family, hell, they are the best thing about this universe, and I strongly believe they are my reward for putting up with so much family shit.

Less emo posts to come. I'm a pussy who hates it when people fight and it takes a while for the nerves to calm down.